*pokepoke* Gosh, I should post here more, huh?

*pokepoke* Gosh, I should post here more, huh?

*pokepoke* Gosh, I should post here more, huh?

*pokepoke* Gosh, I should post here more, huh?

Rock on, you're a Ravenclaw! Intelligent, level-
headed, and mysterious, you can often be

found in the library, studying. You are smart and
get the best grades in your class. In fact,

you probably got all Outstandings on your O.W.L.s!
Your house is respectable and has a good
Quidditch team. The founder of your house was
Rowena Ravenclaw. Go Eagles!

(Art courtesy of Ayne Greensleeves)

An Intelligent Harry Potter House Sorting Quiz
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The above posted to explain why my AOL buddy icon is a Ravenclaw shield.

I'd be HERMIONE GRANGER.

If I were a Harry Potter student, I'd be.... (great images)
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In the meantime, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! I got a valentine via email from an old friend, *cough*professor*cough* that really brightened my day. A valentine! Can you believe it? And the usual chocolate and candy from my dad and mom.

I need to lose weight.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

May the days ahead be full of cheerfulness and good things. May we catch the I-270 shooter so we can all go to Columbus without fear. May my Grandpa make a full recovery and get out of the hospital (he's been in there two months!) May all my friends keep in touch. May I rekindle my friendship with so many I've lost. May I do my best to better myself so that I might find a kindred soul to love and cherish, like so many of my friends have done.

And above all, may the blessing of peace return to our world.

"You may say I'm a dreamer, but I"m not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us, and the world will live as one."

Please have a safe New Years' Day, everyone. :)

OH YEAH! And GO BUCKS!!! Let's bring the spirit of Ohio back to the Fiesta!

I give up.

It seems that in the last year, perhaps four, that I have continually been trying to create myself, to make myself live up to talents that I WANTED to have rather than actually possessed. I wanted to be a writer. Okay, so I was a writer. I tried, anyway. No more writing! I wanna be an ARTEEEST! Yes, that's it! I'll be an artist. I'll buy myself lots of supplies and draw lots of nice things. Well, that turns out spiffy. Let's try another drawing. Hm. So I'm not a primo drawer. So let's try painting! Painting is nice. Let's see, buy some more supplies... spend some more time perfecting skill... ah. Not quite there yet. Webpages! Let's do webpages! Well, that's really the only thing that's got me anywhere, and even with those I'm not a high-class flash designer with lots of programming experience.

I once surrounded myself with such talented people. Such inspiring, wonderful, talented people. And those people boosted me up and taught me so much. I credit Arwen for helping me learn to draw and for inspiring me to get my pencils moving, but our lives have veered in such different paths that we rarely talk anymore. And then there were the writers - Alex and Jules and Lisa and the others. Being around what I perceive as the "cream of the crop" inspired me to write and write, but I never seemed to reach their level. I was never good enough to reach that platform on which I held their writing. And they too seem to have fallen by the wayside. Not that I've put them down as I have so many other hobbies, but that we've veered down separate paths and have lost contact.

So where am I now? I am working as a Graphic Designer, but even at that I feel like a hack, even though I spent two months as the sole designer at work.

So perhaps what I meant by "I give up" is that I give up trying to attain everyone's level. It's the curse of surrounding yourself with such talented friends! So instead, I choose to play second fiddle. I choose to be the Robin to their Batman. The Chewie to their Han.

But I do hope that in the new year, I'll be able to get in touch with them all. I miss them terribly. I feel quite alone without them to keep me company.

Any of you out there?